[s72] mental link.

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you care for people so much it breaks your heart...and you're lying to yourself about it.	however much you may model your behavior after a normal, decent person, you are no such thing.
you have no place in the lives of normal people.	you aren't a broken wreck. that's how i see it, and i know i'm right.

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( I was worried he'd do something stupid — actually, I'm still kind of worried. I guess working as a team is as much about keeping him in check as anything else. )

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( Maybe one of us will rub off on him. )

[ Although as soon as he thinks it, it occurs to him that with sharing brainspace, that could be a bit more literal than he'd been intending, and now he's creeped himself out a little. Whoops. ]

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[ Elliot's mind goes to a similar place and he sort of winces mentally. ]

( That's the goal, right. We all become... well, a "we". )

[ Like Elliot doesn't have enough people in his head. ]

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[ It's not a comfortable thought. ]

( Not sure what all of you did to deserve getting stuck with me, but sorry about that. )

[ It sounds like it could be a joke. In a purely verbal conversation, he'd probably play it off that way and it'd be easier to keep things from getting awkward. But there's a lot more sincerity to it than that. ]

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[ A soft chuckle down the telepathic line, even though he knows it's not a joke. ]

Nah, man, you're cool. But for what it's worth, same.

[ We allll be fucked up in this brood, son. ]

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( Thanks. )

[ "Thanks for also being fucked up" is - not quite the implication, but he's used to feeling like a complete trainwreck of a person compared to all the nice normal well-adjusted people around him.

Not feeling like such a freak of nature is...kind of nice. ]

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[ Elliot doesn't even say "no problem" just sends a corresponding sort of feeling. And maybe he lets the connection stay a while longer, companionable without being intrusive, but it's the mindlink equivalent of sitting in silence. It helps him practice his shielding, and... yeah, it's sort of nice. But he doesn't say anything else. ]